I feel like a total pile of dirty magazines.

Seriously, I don't whine. Things don't upset me easily.

This one hurt though. Real bad.

Conrad left for the army a few weeks ago, as I mentioned here once or twice. I obviously don't give out my address on line, so he was giving me messages via Squishy. He promised he'd write when he could.

Well he's written three letters so far. He said, in only one sentence, that he missed me in ONE of those letters. The last letter was three pages long. Those three pages were spent telling Squishy how good a friend she was, how much he likes her and all her qualities. Three pages he spent telling her how wonderful she was.

He said "I miss Chi". In one letter. Well I certainly just got put in MY place.

I wanna cry, but I kinda can't. Something in my mind is telling me this is a stupid thing to be upset about. And it really is. If he wants to pick favorites, whatever. I don't give two flying pumpkin kings. But c'mon, anyone gets hurt over feeling dejected. So I kinda feel like crap right now.

A glass of milk and a tasty cake'll fix things though. My proactive habits will turn back onto autopilot in maybe half an hour and I'll be okay again. A women's tylenol wouldn't hurt either.

*phew* Just had to let that out.