Sorry, I been bad not updating, but here I am.

I've been whining lately about how college has been kicking my butt. That I'm trying my best but still apparently not doing so hot.

Guess what?

That's all in my head.

Yes it is.

I was spoiled by powerschool last year. I could always tell exactly what my grade was whenever I wanted it. So now that this year I CAN'T see my grade whenever I please, I just automatically assume I'm dong bad.

I talked to my Bio teacher (the only class I was really concerned about) and said "My only concern is that I don't have a D in here." Her eyebrow goes up. "Oh god," I'm thinking, "here's the part where she says 'uh, YEA yo do.'". She goes... and I kid you not, word for word.

"What? Chi, you have nothing to worry about. You have one of the best grades in this class. You're my most exceptional student, you obviously don't need a lot of guidance."

I gave a big, beaming smile, thanked her, walked out of the room where Ryan was waiting and just started crying. (He thought I was going to tell him I DID fail ;))

I apparently don't give myself enough credit for the work I do. I knew I did all the homework and aced my tests, but not being able to see my grade really worried me. I've been a mental case since December started, and a huge burden just came off my shoulders.

I'm better than I give myself credit for and it feels awesome!!!

-Chi <3