Tomorrow is my birthday. The big 1-9. I'm VERY excited; my coworkers and students at school have some special surprises lined up for me and I can't wait to see my sweet Pigeon and hopefully there will be cookie cake and Rainforest Cafe involved :)

A friend of mine texted me today to see how I was doing after a bad night last night. It really made my morning to know he was thinking of me. He has troubles of his own to worry about, but he still remembered me.

One of my OTHER friends then, is it too much to ask for a little acknowledgment? This friend has slowly but surely been pushing my buttons. I feel very unappreciated by her and when I talked to her about this, she argued instead of apologizing, so I let it drop. It seems to have gotten worse since then.

I thought about this friend's birthday about two weeks in advance. I saw that she didn't want to do anything big for her birthday, so I wanted to do something big FOR her. Me and mom ran around getting cups, plates, balloons, presents, and cakes and threw her a surprise party at my house where we had a sleepover, ate cake, and opened presents.

So today, one day before my birthday (and the last day we both know we'll see each other this week since I'm going to see my Pigeon), I get in the car. Not a word... No "Happy Birthday", No "who's almost 19?!" So I decide to help her along a bit.

Me: ... *deeeeep breath* Can you believe I'm gonna be 19 tomorrow?! How scary...
Her: ... Oh yea. Happy Early Birthday.
Me: Thanks!
Her: I was gonna get you something yesterday, but it was too crazy.

WHAT?!?!?!?

Let's ignore the fact that you're acting like you only had yesterday to throw something together: it was too crazy yesterday to FOLD A PIECE OF CONSTRUCTION PAPER AND WRITE HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON IT, but it WASN'T too crazy to text my phone and tell me that I owe you money for books YOU didn't renew??

Her mom went BONKERS on her for asking me to pay that, by the way. BANANAS. And wouldn't let me pay it. THANK you. So you had PLENTY of time to run around covering your ass for your mistake, but not even a card for me?

I don't wanna sound selfish here. I spent a LOT of money on christmas and birthday gifts for her. You think it wasn't crazy running around throwing a surprise party together in such a short amount of time? No, "craziness" wouldn't stop me from that. But for all that, all I want is a frikken card, a folded piece of paper that you made yourself is fine with me. Hell, I don't even need that. I want to NOT HAVE TO PROMPT YOU TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Yea. For $200 on YOU, I only want an acknowledgment of my day in return.

You had time to run around trying to cover your butt so you didn't have to spend six dollars, but you couldn't throw a card together for me even.

Like, are you too blind to realize how jeopardizing that is to a friendship? Obviously, I'm not a high priority on your list. Amanda got a birthday present on her birthday just three days ago. Did Amanda get you ANYTHING for YOURS?

Favors? Forget em. You have officially burned your bridge. I have asked for nothing in return for what I do for you but your respect as my friend, and right now you're not treating me like a friend. So I can only assume you don't think we are anymore.

So whatever. You do that. I'm going to spend time with my family friends, and I'm way excited about it. So you're not gonna bring me down with this one so you have someone to miserable with. Too bad, I'm too excited to see my Pigeon for that.

-Chi <3